The Electric Slide....

So I fell off the wagon! I went a whole 2 days with out the Effexor and I could NOT get through the second night! After I wrote my blog, I tried to go to bed.....the ZAPS got the best of me! I would be laying there trying to go to sleep and that dang buzzer would go off in my head! ZZZZZZ I was totally weak and the med won out! I had to take one of the 37.5 mg Effexors! But I emailed my doctor today and asked him about it. I am going to make an appointment to see him. He said that the Effexor was definitely causing this and its not depression that I felt, its just the withdrawal. How great to have a doctor that actually took the time to write back!!
I spoke to a pharmacist today that said that she TOO is taking Effexor. Effexor is a great drug for treating depression and anxiety...and it has two other great uses: treating hot flashes (we used it for this a lot at the cancer place) and it helps stop teeth grinding! She said that she had a terrible problem with both and the second of the two, it helped.
She also told me what I already knew, that Effexor is extremely hard to stop taking. She said that her own doctor was saying that he was not sure what he would do for her when it came time to try to stop. After some discussion, we figured that I could start taking an SSRI along with the low dose Effexor and just slowly transition to that drug that would be easier to discontinue. BUT WE SHALL SEE! I am going to make and appointment with my doctor to see what he suggests. He is a head doctor so I figure he should know! And I will be curious to know if he thinks I SHOULD ABSOLUTELY continue taking and antidepressant.
AM I DEPRESSED? I don't really think that I am. I don't sit here and ruminate over things. I don't think the world is crashing down around me. I love myself enough. I haven't been irritable....other than when Pete says something to get me going...he likes doing that! I don't even feel like I'm out of control with my children...and every one knows how hard it is to raise a 2 year old and a 7 year old! But I can not walk around a boo hooing, snotting idiot! So again, I guess this is something that I will have to wait and see about.
For now, I am just so thankful that the buzzer has been removed from my brain! Hopefully it will stay gone for a while!
As a side note...a testament to God's love....I got off the phone with a family member last night and felt as though I should just go dunk my head in a bucket of water and never come up for air. The conversation was so full of dooms day stuff that I felt miserable and irritated that I had to listen to that stuff! Well, God has IMPECCABLE timing!! No sooner did I get off the phone with my family member, that my friend Vanessa called with very exciting news and conversation about what God was doing in her life. Not only did we talk about what blessings God had given her but also, the gift of truth and life that he offers all of us. What a huge blessing to be rescued from my previous conversation! Thank you God!